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Whatsapp group chats can be the most annoying thing at times. It's not surprising that most of us have almost all the groups on 'mute'.

However, every now and then, some really interesting conversation happens, and that is what I'm reproducing below, with just the initials of the people who sent them. Some thoughts are mine, some are not.

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It started with this early morning message from one of us: ('A')

P: I think the biggest mistake people do is to attach love to happiness. The last line of this is guilty of that. Detaching happiness from everything else is the only key to happiness. Love, on the other hand, is another Pandora's box all together!
A: Morning gyaan part 2. So true.
M: Second that, P. And a Pandora's box should never be opened
A: Pandora box full of love should never be opened.
M: It's Pandora's box, you can never be sure what you're signing up for, love or all kinds of evils and miseries.
A: #heavymornings lol
K: But happ…

Silver

I'll be 25 in another two weeks, and for some unfathomable reason, I am pretty excited about this one. My birthdays are not really something I look forward to, and that's because of a lot of reasons- you keep building the hype for months and weeks and days and everything is over in just 24 hours, just like that, phoo; some calls never come, and you keep waiting till the end of the day, this thing constantly ticking at the back of you head; some unsaid expectations are not met, even though consciously you are not aware of these, but your heart shrinks when 'these things' don't happen.

That being said, this year has been quite a roller-coaster ride already, and there is not much to lose at this point in time. Hence the excitement. I've also made a special effort to clear the clutter, from my mind and physical space around me, just to make sure there is only good energy around my silver. And there are some little things that I have in mind to do for myself this b…

Chris Martin

If you never try you never know.

But what if you do try and it doesn't work out in your favor? Do you get a chance to go back and fix things and restore them to what they were, or do you live with the fact that somewhere down the line, probably years from now, you will wake up one day and regret this decision you took?

What if you don't try? Are you willing to live your life in the shadow of all the 'what ifs' that could've happened but didn't because you refused to try?

What is easier to do? To know for certain, even if things don't go your way, or to live a life imagining what could have been but didn't,

The choice is unbelievably hard, but it's a choice we all have to make at certain points in our lives-what stream to choose, which college to go to, study more or start working, money or happiness, hold on or let go, move away or keep trying.

There is no way to know what life has in store for us. The only certainty is change. The tiniest of decis…

(not so-)Random Conversation

[Sign-2/ 2008- 7 long years!]

Girl:"I think you're detatching yourself from me. I don't think I mean anything to you now. I've lost the importance that you once used to give me in your life.There's no point dragging it just for the heck of it. I feel you're suffocated and this time I'm sure I haven't done anything to be treated like a doormat."
Boy: "I know. I've also been thinking alot about this lately. I can't hurt you anymore. I can't deal with it. It's very difficult for me to continue. I just can't do it."
Girl: "Are you sure you want to do this to us? I hope you realise what you're doing and where it'll take us. I'm ready to accept you the way you are. I have absolutely no issues. I'll deal with it I swear. We'll manage if we can just give it one more chance. It will work. We can make it work."
Boy: "I can't do this anymore. I'm a completely different person now. I re…
This is from 2009. I feel so much better, already. Probably I just need to rake my older, more sorted self, and it'll all be good. Sometimes, the only sign the universe gives you is the one in your drafts. :)





To be content with oneself is one thing, to be content with the deeds we do is another.

Rants.

It's been a year since I posted last. Well, almost.

There are days when you recognize yourself, there are days when you don't. Today is the latter. I have very little, almost nil, idea of the person that I have become. It is said that your 20s in not the time to be pulling your shit together, but does that give me (or any of us) a license to get so disillusioned that you lose track of life?

Don't get me wrong. I've not become a 'junkie', doing dope, or wasting my time. I have a new and steady job that is creatively challenging and keeps me on my toes at all times, I have a family that loves me but we stay apart because I chose to (though against their wishes but it has done good to the both of us), I have really smart friends who are extraordinary in their own way, doing unconventional jobs and redefining 'employment'. I have everything right, except in these past couple of years, I have stopped recognizing myself.

I have always been very principled- n…